Missing you already
I see u walk away for your appointment
I was reluctant to let you go
I know I shldnt be feeling this way
But with every mellow song playing thru my ears, I have an ache in my heart
Im missing you already
How can this be
A sense of emptiness suddenly sweeping thru me
I know I shldnt be feeling this way
When I was just with you the whole afternoon
But I cant stop this ache in my heart
Am I falling too hard for you all over again?
The mellow music goes on and on
I'm afraid but I cant let go of you
宝贝, i dun even knw hw to explain tis.. my heart aches the same way as your's, and i find missing you even in the moments you are right beside me. it feels like my heart recognise you before my mind can catch up. every moment with you feels too short and every bye feels too heavy 🥺 maybe im scared to admit it but our connection is still so strong, so familiar, so impossible to forget. and all i want is to hold you close, keep you warm in my arms and never let you slip away from me agn 💞 爱你 😘
ReplyDeleteI dun even know wch 'day' of us this is.. maybe it doesn't matter.. everything btwn us feels so natural, so unplanned, like our story just continued where our hearts paused years ago... 👭
ReplyDeletesmtimes I still cun believe us.. how we found our way back.. how our hearts remembered wat our minds tried so hard to forget. it touches me so deeply tat I dun even knw how to put it into words. and honestly it makes me sad too.. sad for all the years we missed, all the moments we could have had, all the pain we caused each other without meaning to..
and smtimes I tink.. if tat day I didn't text you out for a simple coffee catupup, we probably wouldn't even reconnect. we wouldn't be standing here agn, feeling all these things we tot we buried. jus the thought of tat makes my heart aches, cos tis second chance feels so fragile, so precious..
I miss you more and more each day.. I yearn for you in ways tat scares me, surprises me, softens me.. and smtimes I even wonder do I really deserve the love you are giving me now? you held me in your heart all these years, even after I hurt you, even after your life moved on, and yet you nvr let me go.. 😢
tat breaks me a little.. but it heals me a little too. I'm scared.. not cos my heart isn't true.. but cos I'm afraid I cun give you as mch as you need, as mch as you deserve..
I have been alone for years, maybe too long.. learned to surivive alone in my own world, learned to protect myself until I din even realize I'm shutting ppl out.. so if I ever seem unsure, or slow.. or if it feels like I'm not prioritizing you enuff the way you hope.. pls tell me.. and forgive me.. it's not cos I dun feel it, it's cos I feel too deeply, and I dun wan to fail you agn..
and pls give me time.. time to relearn wat it means to love someone .. time to adjust to not walking alone.. time to let another heartbeat enter my quiet world.. time to be the woman who can truly hold you, softly, tightly, fully, without fear. even though I'm scared.. I want to hold you close, so close until you can feel how sincere my heart is.. I want to to fill the spaces I left empty in our past, to give you wat I couldn't give back then, to love you a little better each day than the gal I once was..
I'm touched..
I'm afraid..
I'm grateful..
I'm sad..
I'm hopeful..
and all of these is becos of us.. a story I nvr tot would return.. yet here we are agn, standing in a place tat feels both familiar and completely new..
maybe this time, I can hold you close enuff, love you true enuff, and we can finally write the chapters we never got to write.. 💕